Flashback-
“Please, Jonghyun! Please… don’t go! You’ve misunderstood! Please let me explain!” Charmaine cried, trying to stop me from leaving.
“No, it’s over. There’s nothing to explain,” I said, picking up my luggage and headed towards the door. That’s when I felt her hug my waist tightly from behind.
“Please… You know that I only love you and wouldn’t even dream of cheating on you… Jonghyun,” she whispered, her voice a little shaky. “ I love you..”
“Well, that’s too bad. ‘Cause I don’t.”
What a big, fat lie. I wish I could just run back to her. Hug her and comfort her, tell her that everything’s all right. But I knew that couldn’t happen. Yes I know I have tolerated some other things that she’d done to me. But this was a different thing.
I asked myself whenever I caught her doing something to let me down, “Is it really okay? Can I live without her?” and I find myself not angry at her almost immediately, because I know I couldn’t live without her. But this – cheating, is something I just can’t tolerate. I tried asking myself that question when I first came to know of it. Turns out, my answer then was: yes, I can live without her, because I don’t need a girl who cheats on me.
I freed myself from her grip and walked out of the opened door, muttering an “I’m sorry” on the way out.
-End of flashback-
That happened exactly 2 years ago on this very day – Christmas. What a lovely way to spend Christmas isn’t it… breaking up with your girlfriend on Christmas. When you actually had a really nice surprise for her and you find that she’s cheating on you. My heart just shattered into a million pieces when I found out. I literally cried myself to sleep that night. I absolutely hated her for cheating on me… or so I thought.
I had tried to move on. I got myself another girlfriend. I thought I had given her my all. When I had finally let go of Charmaine, a new heartbreak was in store for me. It was like I was destined for heartbreak every time I tried to love someone.
“Your heart wasn’t fully with me. It’s with someone else,” she said. “I’m just a replacement isn’t it? You still can’t let her go, am I right? Huh, I should’ve known earlier. You showed many signs, Jonghyun. I was just too thick to realize them.”
“No… You’re the one I love. You know very well that I love you and you only. Please, Tiffanie… Please… don’t go..” I tried stop her from leaving. Well doesn’t this seem like déjà vu. I’ve experienced this before, just that I was the person trying to leave. Huh, I guess I know what Charmaine was feeling at that time. This feeling was just horrible.
“Jonghyun, you and I know very well that you do not love me. That night you came home drunk, you were mumbling her name over and over. And that was when I realized, you didn’t love me at all.
“You thought you did, I thought you did, but we were both wrong. I think it’s best that I leave, don’t you think? I’m really sorry, Jonghyun. It was fun while we lasted. Have a nice life. Goodbye,” Tiffanie’s voice started to shake as she said goodbye. Tears dripped down her cheeks slowly as she left.
I was, of course, left there heartbroken. I bawled my eyes out that night. From that day on, I knew I couldn’t love anyone. I didn’t dare to love anyone. I was afraid, yes. Afraid of heartbreak.
A few months later, while eating at a restaurant, I saw Tiffanie walk in holding hands with a guy a recognized as my high school schoolmate, Hyunchul. What a coincidence. I immediately took a random menu to cover my face. I didn’t want her to notice me. She looks really happy with Hyunchul.
“Hah. Yeah. She’s better off with him than with me,” I thought. They looked really happy together, not to mention a great couple. They even shared a short but sweet peck on the lips.
“Congratulations, Tiffanie. You have finally found someone who can love you wholeheartedly huh. May you two be happy together,” I mumbled to myself. I remember how Hyunchul’s always going on about Tiffanie. Praising her every single day like she’s the best thing in the world and asking me what to do since he likes her so much. Yep, Tiffanie was my high school friend as well.
Today, Christmas, was going to be a very special day. I can feel it. I was walking under the street lights when it started to snow. “Wow! It’s snowing!” I heard some people say. It would be the perfect date, today. Ha… that is, if I had one.
I stopped in my tracks to look at the night sky. The sight of the snow slowly falling down was beautiful. Suddenly, I heard something drop onto the ground in front of me. I looked to see the person I never expected to see. The first love of my life, and the first person to cause me heartbreak – Charmaine was standing right in front of me.
I was caught by surprise, so I just stood there staring blankly at her. She too, just stared at me, shocked. I saw tears start to roll down her cheeks. And for some reason, my eyes started to get watery too.
Charmaine suddenly ran towards me and gave a tight hug. “Oh Jonghyun! I’ve missed you so much! I’m really sorry about the other time. But you didn’t give me a chance to explain. Can you give me a chance to explain?”
I looked away. I hadn’t totally forgiven her about that though it happened 2 years ago. But since she sounded really sincere about wanting to explain, what harm could it do to hear her out? “Shoot,” I said though not directly looking her in the eyes.
“Okay, so, that guy you caught me with that day wasn’t my “outside boyfriend” or anything. He was just my really good friend in high school. He’s been dating this girl and he wants to buy her a ring but doesn’t know what girls normally like, so he asked me out to help him get a ring that I think his girlfriend will like,” Charmaine explained.
I looked at her with an I’m-not-very-convinced-with-your-story kind of look. But I decided to give her another chance. If she lets me down one more time, it’s over between us.
“Okay, I’ll believe your story this time. And this is the last chance I’m giving you okay? If you let me down one more time it’s over.” I told her sternly. It seems like things are going back to the way it was before our stupid fight even took place. Well, we are certainly talking like that, so I guess everything’s back to normal again.
“ Yes sir! Hehehe,” Charmaine said jokingly, pretending she was talking to a general in the army or something.
We just stood there for a while, enjoying the sight of the snow that was still falling down slowly. “This is beautiful,” Charmaine said while admiring the snow.
“Yeah, I guess it is.”
That night, when it stopped snowing, Charmaine and I went to the rooftop of my apartment to admire the beauty of the stars. They shone brightly that night. It was simply magical, like the stars were giving us their blessings as well.
“Yah, Jonghyun,” Charmaine whispered into my ear. I turned around to face her only to find my lips on hers. I felt her smirk between the kiss. No, it wasn’t the passionate kind nor the forced kind. It was just a sweet kiss that was not too overdone. It was perfect.
We finally pulled away after a while. There on the roof, we admired the stars the whole night, snuggling together to keep warm.
“I love you, Jonghyun.”
“I love you too.”
This moment could just go on forever.
~The End~
A/N: AHHHHHHH~~~ I’m like finally done with this!!! WOOOTS~ It wasn’t that long for a one shot but I hope you guys liked it. Oh and one thing, the kiss between Tiffanie and Hyunchul was a bit weird coz I dunno how to add in a kiss there coz Tiffanie requested that she was kissed by Hyunchul in the fic. So Tiffanie, I’m sorry. Heheh.